In March of 2017, after a whirlwind adventure in Brussels and Paris, I was inspired to put my life ‘happenings’ on something other than Instagram or FaceBook. Logically, and without any planning or aforethought, I purchased this domain name, paid some internet company to host my site, and watched around 45 minutes of YouTube tutorials about WordPress. Voilà, I was all set up within a matter of hours! Thereupon, I’m guessing I decided to make avocado toast or maybe buy something on Amazon, regardless of what I actually did, I got distracted and left my new ‘passion project’ to sit and collect dust for 6 months.
[A brief side note, I have Adult ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder…for those of you living under a rock). I wasn’t diagnosed until my third year of law school and let me tell you, life changed, almost overnight, when I started taking SSRIs.
Historically, I haven’t had trouble succeeding at most tasks but apparently, I had just been pushing past the symptoms of ADHD for years. Often I was able to use my excessive activity and restlessness to help me achieve a multitude of projects at the same time. This became abundantly clear during my 1L year of law school while
after a five-hour final exam study session, I stayed up the entire night to craft and sew a Minnie Mouse onesie and tutu for my niece’s 2nd birthday party (which, by the way, turned out fantastically). I went to the school that morning, on less than 2 hours of sleep, and took my exam. I didn’t come home and crash, in fact, I probably didn’t even take a nap; I just kept on studying.
No rational, normally functioning adult would do this the night before a big exam. But in my mind, I could have the time if I just made the time. Unfortunately, this type of disorganization and impulsiveness, coupled with my firey-hot temper, is not sustainable and certainly not conducive to a stable and peaceful life.]
But I digress, I’m now in my 30’s and far more capable of recognizing when I just need to slow down and focus. Although I “know” this, sometimes I still don’t take my ADHD pills (not a rational thing to do…I know), especially when I want to get a lot of things accomplished. So that’s what happened. I fell prey to my own vices of poor planning and unrealistic time management.
Now, after 6 months of making absolutely no progress, I’ve decided to actually etch out some time, each day, to write down ideas, stories, lists, reflections, analysis, or memories. I certainly won’t be posting to this blog each day, but at least once a week I’ll slap together a mishmash of things I have written and post it here, for all the World to see. But more realistically, my sister Rachel and 1 of my 11 aunties will be the only people to actually read this. C’est la vie!
